Film Study Paper

So, for the first paper, I picked Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix to write about the cinematography and such. I absolutely love the Harry Potter series but when I have to dig deep and write about it, it loses interest. I can only pick a 2mins. scene to write about, no more than 15 shots. The limitation drives the paper to be even more boring than it already is. I finish the first part of the paper and now I am brain-farting and having a writer's block. I wonder what's gonna happen for the next two paper I have to write about. Ironically, I am writing my blog when I am having a writer's block. :P

It's so easy to write about what's in your mind than something you have to spend time to construct. A paranoid freak like me gets all anxious when writing an academic paper, always seeking for perfectionism. Eventually, the perfectionism just turns to procrastination. I learned it the hard way last quarter.

Anyway, I really want to buy a plane ticket and go back to HK. I wonder if I would be able to get a job there. The media would be an interesting place to start because I never consider any artistic activity as work. I can fully engaged when it comes to music and design. Maybe I can be a teacher although my patience is pretty short. Who knows? It's funny how I desperately wanted to leave HK when I was 13 and now I desperately want to go back and visit. Sometimes I wonder, would I enjoy the fast paced life in HK? Am I able to take all the criticisms and judgement from people about my appearance? But then, after all, I am not the abnormal one. It's not a crime to be not-so-skinny. It's sick how every girl is running away, trying to skip meals and be "skinny". I have no problem accepting the idea of healthy lifestyle and if that's the purpose, yes, I will do it. I will never do it for the sake of being like everybody else. Uniqueness shows characteristics. Haha, am I lying to myself? Okay, who doesn't want to be pretty, but definitely not the extreme way of diet or anyway...I will go on and on.

Financial crisis, yes, it's happening not only to the stock market, but definitely to me. I got my paycheck today and it's not beautiful. After the salary tax, I can barely pay the credit card bill. This is the saddest part of life. Would it be nice that we won't have to worry about money? Yes, that would be nice.

Oh well...life is always life. That's why we have to find the fun parts of live and enjoy!

Thanks to RubberBand, my week is going beautifully with encouraging music everyday.